I'm guessing right now that the first comment I get will be from my little sister, don't let me down.
So today is pretty much my first free day since May 28th. But really, tomorrow is because earlier today I was still at camp. Not that I'm not free there, I've just got responsibilities then. Anyway, I am so amazed at the way God is working in my life. Just these past two weeks I have learned so much about God, others, and myself. The staff here at Lutherhoma is awesome. Honestly, these people are so wonderful and each already maintain a special place in my heart. It is so exciting to be able to work the entire summer with them and just be able to grow and love. I'm skipping to another topic for a moment.
The saddest part of being here is being away from my friends back at school. Even though there are wonderful people here, I feel a responsibility to be back in Norman loving and supporting my friends. I especially miss you. I know you know it, but I feel like I'm letting you down by not being there. Just know that I am praying for God's guidance in your life and I know that He will strengthen us in our relationship even though we are apart.
It's kind of crazy the way that life works. I'm sad because my college friends are so far away, but completely at peace with the relationships I have here. But I know that whenever I go back to school in August my heart will be aching because all of these incredible individuals will be further away than just a 10 foot walk to the cabin next door. But that just goes right back to having a relationship through Christ and being able to maintain strong bonds even whenever distance tries to tear you apart.
I have a very specific (sepafic for though of you who laugh at my disability) pray request for you guys. Please pray for me to allow acceptance. Today we were just talking about what paralyzes us and I wish I would have been able to form words at the time to share what mine was. I know that I have an extreme inferiority complex. I was talking to someone dear last night about being jealous of other people's relationships because I didn't have as good of a relationship as they did. So whenever I was thinking about this I realized that I am in constant need of acceptance. One thing is that I hate to invite myself to do stuff with people because don't want to get in their way if they don't want me to come, but a lot of times people expect for you to speak up. I allow myself to sit around and watch people have fun while I'm just observing because I don't want to interfere. Then whenever people develop strong relationships I get jealous because that is something I desire to have but won't initiate it because I want the other person to accept me first so that I am not worried about them not really wanting to be my friend. Just pray for peace of mind and that even if I cannot get over this, I will be able to use it to accept others and show them Christ's unconditional love through me.
I found some scripture that I really like. It's Colossions 3:13
"You must make allowance for each other's faults and forgive the person who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others." | 
